So lately I have been writing quite a bit. Mostly poetry or short stories. The short stories are kinda boring and usually dont have much of a plot. But the poetry is actually not bad, atleast thats what I think. The poems are written about the horrific times of life and about depression and just sad shit, which seems to be my speciality.

Anyways, who cares right? Im still trying to think of a set I want to do. Its hard to find decaying buildings out here. Espiciall when new ones go in up a matter of months. Im thinking of just doing a story about someone or something.

Usually when im bored, I go out on a drive an look for new spots to shoot. Lately though I have been finding myself running out of options. Ive only lived here for about 2 years and already I have photos from all over the area. Theres still some places near where I live, where I would love to take photo at. For instance. Driving around today I was near the airpot during sunet and you could see the big orange ball that the sun is, setting into the distance as it shilloueted the runway and plane that was taking off. It was fucking gorgeous.

But anyways. Ive been thinking I could do a project shoot of some sort. Either like a 365 day project were I would take photos every day for a year. oooorrr I would love to do another decay/depression set. Except instead of buildings I would do portrait of people. I dont know, im just trying to think what would make a good story/set

If that doesnt work out, I may document someones life and/or the birth or death of something. I was going through my friends old photos and he had about 40 photos of his uncle who went through a major depression. Its just so cool to see someones life evolve and change. Im kinda vouyerstic. Its just amazing to s teh first photo which is of his uncle at a funeral then the last which is his uncle at the beach, smiling. You see him transform into a completely diffrent person. i think that would be the coolest fucking thing to do

Anyways, the reason I posted this fuckin non-sense fucking go no where journal is to get some ideas. if anyone has any ideas. Let me know!

So recently I've been going on late night walks to help cure my boredom. While on one of these walks, I discovered theres a shit load of parks in my area. So ever since discovering this I have been obsessed with shooting the local parks at night.

For some reason I just dont see anything there during the day time. The lights to harsh, theres just no real vibe during the day. But at night, it all looks so much diffrent. Ive been so obsessed that almost every night I'll take a walk or drive to one of the near by parks and spend an hour or so, by myself, just shooting pictures.

I just listen to my Ipod. Listen to some Bitcrush or SubtraciveLAD or Port Royal and start shooting. Its fucking amazing. I think most people would be bored to walk around a park at night an take pictures of some random street light or a lonely bench. But I just cant get away from it.

That I took for photo 10 is now hanging on the wall near Niel Chapmans office.

How awesome is that!?


The answer is...... VERY!!

Well kind of, its almost done but whatever. Writing for me has always been something almost, uhh, theraputic. Its always helped me. I feel the happiest when im with my friends, taking photos, or writing. There were days when I felt like my life was fuckin over. But I would go out, take some pictures, come back and I felt alot better. My whole world was falling apart, but photography gave me a way to express myself. Photography was almost a cure for me. Nothing seems to matter when Im shooting. Im still suprised that Ive come so far in photography. It was just a lttle over a year ago that I got my first camera, my nikon D50 with my quantaray 28-90mm. The shots I took were horrible and I knew nothing about photography, my composition was god awful, the white balance was way off. Fast forward 14 months and here I am taking photos everday, making great images.

Anyways, back to the story thing. Around November when I was just coming out of my depression, I started writing about it, my depression that is. I tried several diffrent styles, thrid person story, first person story an some other non-sense. Who cares, right? Right. anyways, Its really helped me get over everything thats happened, its helped me realize shit that I NEED to realize. It put everything in context. I was no longer the guy it happened to, I was just writing about it thinking how dumb the main charecter (me) could be. Im the worst when it comes to my own advice, im great at giving advice and im usually pretty good at making everything seem simple, sometimes not a good thing. But when im the shit, I never seem to listen to myself, I go against everything I beleive, and for what? So im almost done with my little story. Hooray for brandon